is it really only now
that i’ve realised what i’ve been doing wrong for 19 and a half years?
i’ve been living in the past… dwelling on decisions i once made, looking back at loved ones lost, friendships fizzled and mistakes i made, cringey shit i might have said and how fucking awful i looked in tracksuit bottoms.
life is a one way ticket - no returns available. and i could either sit here at the train station wondering about the future or looking back at the rail i have come from… or hop straight on the next train to where ever the fuck i want to go.
i’m here because of me, so its all down to me what i do next. all the decisions i made both good and bad have affected my life in a way which has lead me to the here and now - not where i want to be forever, but where i am comfortable and happy. people have a lot of shit to deal with and i am very lucky to live where i do, have the friends i have and the parents who have taught me and i wouldnt change it for the world.
however, this is just one stop before i gotta get back on the road to my life and im stoked as hell to start it :)
ps. i know this is the gayest thing anyones ever read but all my fucks to give have finally been used for something other than to not be given.